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If you didnât know, Christian Linke recently said that they werenât intending to make Jayce and Viktor romantic but just to show a really close relationship between men which they believe is underrepresented in media.
Of course, as expected, antis have taken this as a way to shut down gay interpretations and bring up how âromanticising a relationship that is meant to be brotherly demeans itâ. It is definitely important to have relationships that depict multiple forms of love and yes at its core we can all agree that Jayce and Viktor are two men who love each other.
I believe that despite what Christian Linke says, the way one chooses to interpret that love ultimately falls on the viewer, as their relationship/love can resonate with people in many different ways.
I personally view Jayvik to be partners, friends and lovers because it resonates with me as a queer fan. I personally see a lot of queercoding in the way they were written and that makes it hard for me to perceive them as not having a romantic love.
For example:
Viktor being shown to take Melâs place in many scenes like Jayce hallucinating him with after Mel and heâs wearing her black eyeshadow.
Mel x Jayce sex scene overlaps with the scene of Viktor becoming entwined with the Hexcore in a way that it makes it difficult for you to even focus on Mel and Jayce.
Amanda mentioning that Viktor was projecting his relationship with Jayce onto Sky this season - the whole science-y bond.
Viktor making the âthis is not the bedroomâ joke when Mel catches him and Jayce trying to sneak into the lab.
This all resonates with me as queer comphet and their love for each other being superior to that of their romantic interests also feels very queer for me.
And I have the right to interpret them in that way. I respect the way Christian Link interprets them and has shown to depict them but I personally do not see their relationship in the same way and I believe characters are just as much as the audienceâs as they are the creators so my interpretation is also valid.
(Also, creators genuinely donât always agree with each other and they differ in opinions when it comes to interpretations of characters/relations whilst Christian Linke may not see their love as romantic. I believe there might be other creators who do which could explain some of the ambiguity in their scenes).
Also, to the antis, queer love is also a valid form of love, it can exist with/without physical intimacy and still be queer.
Perceiving Jayvik as queer does not demean their love for each other at all. Perceiving them as having a platonic or brotherly bond isnât wrong either. All forms of love are pure. Queer or not. Jayce and Viktorâs love for each other is pure and can be seen no matter how you interpret it.
The beauty of a story or a piece of art is enabling the perceived to interpret it in a way it resonates with them and it may not be what the creator intended and it may not be what resonates with you but it is still a valid interpretation.
That is to say I also respect platonic readings of their relationship despite not personally seeing it because you have the right to interpret them in the way you want to. And I am asking you to do the same for me and give me the right to interpret them in the way I want to.
#besides there is also the fact that queer love is underrepresented and honestly this where I disagree with christian linke#there is plenty of male relationships with brotherly and platonic bonds in media#more proof to why queer jayvik doesnât demean anything#but why should it demean their love either way#like I said no matter in what form#love is love#(yes sorry I had to put that quote in here)#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#jayce talis#viktor#viktor arcane#jayce x viktor#jayvik#gay#queer representation
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look this site really is awful for ppl with OCD so i just wanna reassure anyone that you are not Tainted Forever for consuming a piece of media with questionable content. the fact that youre able to recognize it speaks to your critical thinking skills, which is good, certain depictions should be critiqued. but you dont need to ruminate on it to the point where you begin to feel guilty for simply witnessing gross or creepy writing choices. you dont have to vindicate yourself to the fictional tumblr discourser inside your head, saying that youre now a bad person bc you watched the wrong anime. your actual response to it still matters of course, but thats that and this is this. just seeing it is neutral, you didnt commit a thought crime. its literally fine.
IF YOU ARE USING THIS POST TO ONLY FURTHER YOUR STUPID PEDANTIC BLACK-AND-WHITE DISCOURSE TO GET A "GOCHA" OVER THE OTHER SIDE YOU ARE THE PROBLEM. DON'T USE OUR DISORDER TO VINDICATE YOUR BEHAVIOR. THOUGHT CRIMES ARENT REAL BUT ACTIONS STILL MATTER. PEOPLE WITH OCD ARE CAPABLE OF THINKING CRITICALLY ABOUT OUR ACTIONS AND RESPONSES, EVEN WITH INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS AND RUMINATIONS. TREATING US AS IF WE CANNOT, ONLY TO FORCE US TO USE YOUR STRINGENT UNNUANCED DISCOURSE OPINIONS ABOUT "PURITY CULTURE" (TRIGGERING TO THOSE WITH OCD) AS THE ONLY REASONABLE GUIDE DOES MORE TO EXACERBATE OUR OBSESSIONS THAN HELP US. YOU ARE THE ISSUE AS WELL. YOU ARE ALSO THE TUMBLR DISCOURSER INSIDE OUR HEADS. DO NOT USE US FOR YOUR DISCOURSE. WE ARE PEOPLE, NOT HYPOTHETICALS TO USE TO EXPLAIN IF YOUR FROZEN INCEST FANFICTION IS OKAY OR NOT. TREATING US AS IF WE CANNOT AUTONOMOUSLY HAVE OUR OWN OPINIONS ON WHEN MEDIA IS TANGIBLY HARMFUL IS ABLEIST. FORCING US TO ABIDE BY YOUR IN-GROUP'S SET OF UNEQUIVOCAL MORALS IS ABLEIST. ACTING AS THOUGH THE ONLY SOLUTION FOR US IS MINDLESS MEDIA CONSUMPTION IN WHICH "EVERY DEPICTION OF XYZ, NO MATTER HOW POORLY DONE OR EXPLOITATIVE, IS ALWAYS OKAY AND IF YOU DISAGREE YOURE ACTUALLY AN EVIL 'ANTI'" IS ABLEIST. THOSE ARE THE SAME BLACK-AND-WHITE MORALS THAT SEND US INTO OBSESSIVE SPIKES, BUT FLIPPED. A SET OF MORALS IN WHICH QUESTIONING THE IMPACT OF A PIECE OF WORK MAKES YOU AN "EVIL CONSERVATIVE PURITAN "ANTI"" DOES NOT HELP MORAL OCD.
YOU ARE THE DAMN TUMBLR DISCOUERSERS MAKING THIS SHIT WORSE FOR US! YOURE THE EXACT SAME BUT WITH FLIPPED BUZZWORDS! YOU'RE MISSING THE WHOLE DAMN POINT!
#the fictional tumblr discourser inside your head is like the opposite of critical thinking its just extremes#blocking that helps you form better thoughts and come to a better understanding of why said content can be harmful in said depiction etc et#and to be clear shutting off all critical thoughts is not the solution either bc then you end up with.... Those People#the ones who jack off to lolicon on ao3 and think its the same artistically as lolita x_x#this post is not a vindication for that sort of thing. or say like actively supporting an openly bigoted series or author#those are different things because they are actual choices and actions. you chose to respond that way#thats what i mean when i say your actual response still matters. as in your actions surrounding it
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#doctor who#tenth doctor#martha jones#david tennant#freema agyeman#(good god. without even meaning to I went into 'psycho stream of consciousness tagging' mode. whoops)#always thinking of that one post#where OP mentions how the writing tries to make it seem like Ten looked right through Martha/etc#which is a good concept for demonstrating his grief. but also isnt what we really see throughout S3#(not saying he wasn't a grieving MESS because he was. but he's a multi-faceted character and he can grieve AND value Martha simultaneously)#but we see such fierce protective instinct+trust; a bond between them that obviously isn't some one-sided affair#+ his clear intent to impress her/be admired and respected by her (apropos the post that inspired this sentiment)#but RTD obviously isn't the most infallible of writers#*cough* [list of reasons I cut down b/c long] *cough*#He can make Martha say âhe's not seeing me/he doesn't look at meâ but then you just watch with your eyes and you get a different story#It's like the opposite of when Moffat tries to make you believe someone is super important through bold claims without showing his work#instead RTD tries to make you believe Ten is functionally blind to Martha's existence while showing numerous examples of the contrary#then bring in the novels+myspace blog+cartoon that he all signed off on. Which tie together to create a canon backdrop#basically I said all of that to say thisâ#it's the whole reason I had to make this blog to get this sort of stuff off my chest (even if it's just for me sometimes)â#Ten not only SAW Marthaâhe trusted+respected+enjoyed+adored her. And it's a good thing#it doesn't cheapen his grief. I feel like people must think it does which is why I constantly see bad unnecessary takes about them#it just means that Martha was SO important to him and it's ok. they had a killer friendship outside the unrequited minutiae and it's ok#there's even a comic where 'someone' makes him believe she's Martha and he makes her change her appearance because âit's still too rawâ#Just saying you don't say that sort of thing about someone whose existence you're all blasĂŠ about#Martha already gets fucked by the narrative in enough ways without people totally missing her significance in the Doctor's life#you don't have to ship them to appreciate them on a deeper level#anyway. fuck. if you actually read all of these then I'm so sorry#creating this blog has taught me that there are only like two people who feel the same way about tenmartha matters and itâs fine đ#but if I didnât give myself an outlet it would probably form a tumor SO there we are then
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let it be known that i love prince inigo with my whole soul. however sometimes it is SO much fun to think about owain and his two most loyal-est knights you ever seen: worst guy in the world #1 and worst guy in the world #2. i love retainer inigo and severa so much. retainers who bully you and make fun of you and trash on you but theyâd leave behind everyone and everything they ever knew to follow you and protect you in a whole new universe. they love you so much that theyâd swear allegiance to total strangers but that loyalty pales in comparison to what theyâd do for you. and they were all lovers!!!!!!!
#ann plays awakening#awakening trio#sometimes i forget owain is literal royalty and like#in the bad timeline hes probably like. the second most important person there?? unless luci has a sibling#obviously sheâd need her own retainers but unfortunately i am thimking awakening trio thoughts. i miss. i love them in any form#that they are handed to me#i love them as best friends. as forced circumstance allies to family. as lovers.#i know i said lovers in this post but im not sure theyâd ever label it as that#to me its very much âits not exactly romantic but its too intense to be platonicâ#what i am getting at is queer platonic awakening trio btw. in case that wasnt obvious#like no matter who they are or where they go they are eachothers people dude. like literally do not separate#anyways im gonna be thinking long and hard about who should be everyones parents in this timeline#i have what i call my âmainâ pairings and thats what i use for most of my headcanons (ex prince inigo)#but iâd like a completely separate one for owain retainer trio#i think im pretty set on fred!severa#i couuuldddd pick fred!inigo which i do think is SUPER compelling as well but something about freddy!severa⌠also shes so cute as a brunette#like sorry⌠shes just so beautiful#ive been having a lot of thoughts aboht tharj!inigo and i need to figure out if thats current bias talking or if im cooking with that one#i got no idea who owainâs second parent should be. robin maybe? idk#i mean his second parent isnt quite as impactful in regards to trio dynamics in this case just because heâs always the prince but. idk#i really like the idea of half plegian owain but i ALWAYS run half plegian owain cuz im always pairing lissa with robin or henry so its like#this isnt new đđđ but god. PLEGIAN OWAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hm. though. hear me out. manakete owain???????????????? ehhh????#sorry. idk. i love how changing the parents of the second gen can change their characterization. its like my favorite thing ever#i think its why im so attached to all of them. theres always new things to explore with them!!! its so much fun!!!!!!#graaarfggjjjhhhhhhn!!!!
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Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how âability usersâ (opposite to ânormal peopleâ) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ă
´ Ë )âĄ#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs#It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga isâ#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes ofâ#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and herâ#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated#I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I meanâ he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joyâ#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the âproving my strength againstâ#myselfâ narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity thatâ#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg#but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw andâ#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka#and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb#Next. Da really is shipping paradise (âĽďšâĽ) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin#and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Alsoâââââ Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily onâ#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the beliefâ#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we reallyâ#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up#random rambles
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#what if my silco selfship self insert self was dressed more in blues at the beginning until he gets closer to his bossss who ends up#getting him to wear more red and gold. somehow. smile.#talkys#i do love hashtag marking no matter the form. like yes hickeys but also seeing your boss and one of his other goons matching in#color scheme and fancy embellishments. gifted jewelry. like oh brother this is obscene. get a room.#him not being able to express any of this in words or actions when theyre together as well#not acknowledging his subordinate when he's in the same room and yet later said subordinate opens the door to#a parcel sent to him from his boss. you have to wear this red garment for some upcoming taskâ you know.#otherwise the whole plan will fail. no other reason at all.
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i didn't realize how much like... "the thing that is obviously happening isn't happening" is almost just as exhausting and demoralizing and frustrating and scary as the thing itself for me. i didn't realize that aspect of things was weighing on me almost as much as the thing itself until now
#non religion#negative -#mostly in tags sorry i'm ranting#almost anytime i talk to my mom about politics it's âthat's not what's really happeningâ âthat's not what they meantâ#âthat's not what's going to happenâ#and she thinks she's helping. she thinks she's quelling my fears or whatever#but she's not as politically involved as i am (and calls herself a conservative) and is just. saying shit#she's telling me the things i'm seeing aren't happening. that i didn't hear the things i heard#that the things they're saying are going to happen aren't going to happen#she HAS to give everyone else the benefit of the doubt#but can't give ME the benefit of the doubt that i know what the fuck i'm talking about#it doesn't make me feel less fearful in any way shape or form. i just feel like i'm going crazy#like i'm so sure her reaction to the elon clip would be âwell that LOOKS bad but he probably didn't mean it like thatâ like#i'm losing my shit. i'm losing my shit. i'm losing my shit#she does this when i talk about being black (im biracial moms white) she does this when i talk about being gay she does this w politics lik#NO it's not a compliment when people touch my hair without asking#exposing your BLACK husband & children to your racist dad and step mom so we could âchange their mindsâ put us in an UNSAFE POSITION#â90% of christians don't care that you're gayâ INCORRECT âit doesn't matter that pence said he wants to hang gaysâ YES IT FUCKING DOES#âthey're not going after trans adults it's just regulating what kids have access toâ INCORRECT. AGAIN#i'm LOSING MY SHIT#it is INSANE the amount of grace i'm expected to extend to ppl who don't see me as human. people who want me dead. who want my friends dead#i'm blocking so many tags and people this week idec#i just can't deal rn
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dadbod lawrence. sound of everyone cheering !
#is it still a dad bod if he lost custody ohwell thats for the courts to decide#crazy insane in the brain over him Always#i start tearing my surroundings apart w my teeth. sorry it all got a little out of hand then im ok#this made me think about when i was in school nd my friend at the time stabbed me w#no anyway i said dadbods have me in a vice like grip nd she looked at me like i was crazy#safe to say i have never changed my stance no matter how harsh the judgement#yippee ! dad bods i start turning into some form of beast at the mere thought#marks rack this marks rack that i am thinking about curling up on lawrence in a catlike fashion while hes asleep on the couch#what about lawrences rack what then#*âperson donned in pig mask nd cloak comes up behind me everything goes dark*#lawrence gordon#đš
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I donât really talk about it much on here because Iâm extremely lucky to be able to understand exactly whatâs going on in my body, but itâs scary to live for years as someone who Gets Things Done in a way your peers donât really understand, be putting effort into so many things you care about, and then suddenly lose the ability to do not only that but also basic tasks overnight after a deadline, and bit by bit after many. itâs scary getting really irritable sometimes to the point of violence, just when you were meant to be celebrating the rewards from your hard work, the only impact of the work you did that you can see is that you overdrafted your ability to do anything. including have a basic conversation without getting grumpy or crying. and your body is going to make you pay it back with interest, you already know that, but you donât know how to start filling yourself back up. youâve only ever enjoyed being on the grind, hard at work on exciting things.
I donât know how many of you have been through the kind of burnout thatâs years of needing 12hrs of sleep a night but with terrible insomnia, waking up to what feels like a hangover for weeks on end with little relief then rinse and repeat without having a single drink, feeling too sick to eat and needing to exercise to emotionally regulate but being unable to, anxiety that doesnât come from worry but youâll pick that up too at some point, dissociating every time you try to do mentally taxing tasks that youâre PAID for so it takes an hour of grounding yourself just to get five minutes worth of productive concentration, falling asleep the minute you feel a little safe by being in the presence of loved ones. but I suspect Iâm not the only one.
Iâve had songs for the energetic and angsty times leading up to this. for the exasperated times and the brain fog and the times where all my limited energy is tied up in feeling things. that I need to, need to acknowledge, but itâs overwhelming and I live in a haze for weeks as a result of. songs telling of the kind of youth I wish I had, even when I was sold something else. songs for the months spent as a teenager trying to be there for my friends, worrying for them, distracting me from worrying for myself, trying to cling on to positivity and hope amongst it when I had to choose to make a discipline of always seeing that. Iâve had songs for healing and when healing is harder than expected and songs that have the right level of musical complexity to capture the layers of everything thatâs happening in my head, making it sound good, telling me itâs gonna be okay.
I donât know how I could ever say thank you for this. but I do know that I see parts of myself in the people behind these songs, of course I do, and I worry for them as a result and ache for them because itâs hard enough to feel this way when no one knows me or feels the need to control me or mould me into what they think I should be. Iâd do anything to keep them all healthy and happy and all of their loved ones too and I donât think itâs strange as a fan to take that seriously. I hope we can understand the need to treat them gently, and to while not questioning their privacy and the fact that theyâre never going to tell us everything they go through, listen to our intuition when we catch something we relate to and treat what theyâve shared with us or hinted at with the dignity we would if someone we love told us something vulnerable. be kind in our expectations and be intentional in the fan culture we create because it does make its way back to them.
and the same goes with all of you. weâre bonding over the same things. I know a lot of this fandom is in the stage where interpersonal relationships are hard. we donât mean to be grumpy of frustrated but we are. and Iâm sending love to all of you. we can get through this together. itâs what theyâve always longed for isnât it?
#thoughts after how worried Iâve been recently. since june I think#Iâd love to start a conversation in this fandom about the connection im newly discovering between burnout and mental illness and fatigue#in a way we can be positive about these things and be there for each other without calling anyone to confirm if we interpret some songs#to represent experiences that may or may not be theirs because it doesnât matter in the end. we have these songs and if you get it you get#weâve all been clocked as ânot feeling very wellâ recently anyway so. it doesnât need to be specific. but we do need to be kind#like hey. artist. I donât know exactly what youâre going through to have written these songs that mean this to me. but Iâm here for you#fill in the blanks. all weâve got are our stories to share. I hope mine helps us understand and be a little kinder to those who need it#without thinking we can judge who we think needs it. but rather default to kindness and in the case of musicians etc that means patience#it means we learn together. what it means to connect and have boundaries and the boundaries they might like to have#anyway Iâve not said who these songs are by so if you reblog and wanna tag another artist thatâs g Iâve got a few by several others as well#but I know this fandom. I know this band and I know exactly why I worry for each band member though Iâm not gonna say here. just. take care#5 seconds of summer#5sos#luke hemmings#ashton irwin#calum hood#michael clifford#exact experience of burnout I have talked about is that of someone with adhd and a pda profile and some form of bipolar#which may be a product of pda profile things or not. these arenât the only diagnoses Iâd likely fit but they are the ones that explain the#story and have guided me to understand how to recover and Iâm doing that bit by bit. and if you want me to tell you how please ask#but Iâm not advertising it cause thatâs weird Iâd sound like a scammer if I did. even if when Iâm hypomanic I think I can heal everyone
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Getting closer, getting really close now I swear (Patreon)
#Doodles#Just Desserts#Villainsona#True Villainy AU#Just ignore how many times I've said that up to this point lol - I'm serious this time!#I always feel so bad designing TVAU outfits because Charm is always so miserable as a model haha#Could this be a contributing factor as to why it's taken so long?? No I enjoy drawing her like that lol#Made some design notes about the important elements of what I want for her True Villain look - more than just ''Her but Kaiein influence''#I'd still really like a nod to dragon scales of some kind but honestly her classic design is more that#Always going on about her spider theming how to make it dragony! It's the one thing I'm still hung up on lol#As for the rest I think it's Really getting close :) I got to actually turn her little ''shawl'' - I always knew it was Kaiein-related -#Into something that properly mimics his shape! It's all controlled by her tho it's not a part of his body - just magic-infused matter#Made to look like him so there's still that creep factor but it's more her body than his - she can control its shape :D#And I got to keep the jewels! Yesss - made it a motif! Now it's also on her hips and knees to break up her visual space yes very good#It's drips :) Y'know - like ink :) Finally figured that one out lol good job setting up my own symbolism me#And then some elegant drapey bits to match her ''shawl'' and continue to break up her space!! Yes! Good!!#I still haven't decided on a colour palette I think black and white is too obvious and too Kaiein but hmmm - she has a lot of colours#Lots of options to pick from but which is the Correct one - her hair would stay pink so maybe some of her pinks or purples#I'll play with some digital swatches later :)#I'm also so glad I could implement the hood design from one of the scrapped outfits ah <3 I love her in a hood she's so cute#I'm rather pleased with the way the spider web design breaks up her form as well - it's more subdued than the full bottom/shoes stripes but#It's also not very clear here lol the long ones that all the way down to her feet are the third from the center ignore that second one#The second lines out from the center host her wings! Very important!#Kinda reminds me of my holosona in a way actually :0 They /are/ both Evil-aligned hmmmm#All the more reason to colour palette! Differentiate the colours in my head#Really do feel like I'm approaching it now fdjsklafd getting close now!!
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has it ever occurred to anyone that the black and white thinking of anti-/pro- language is a trauma response and we all probably need therapy? and like, life is not actually black and white almost ever??? because human beings are complicated? and forcing yourself to pick a side and draw a line in the sand all the time is probably really bad for our mental health collectively?
#I spent 2 1/2 years working on dealing with my black-and-white thinking with my therapist#Only to come on here and for that to be The Thing We Are All Doing#I donât know it just doesnât hit right#has someone smarter than me already said this?#like i donât think itâs helpful? but maybe iâm missing something#this is not about any specific pro or anti thing#but i will say that iâm talking mostly about social things#not like⌠law making things#laws have genuine impact and standing for or against a policy makes sense when thatâs the only choice on the table#(like to be for or against a bill in its current form)#but when there isnât a bill specifically being discussed itâs much more productive to state what your policies are#because two pro-choice people might have radically different views of that that means#and for the sake of passing a law that doesnât matter#but when it comes to actually legislating⌠it does#idk. is this something? am i about to have the internet cops called on me?
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sometimes i think about pope francis saying he hopes hell is empty and i get. strangely emotional.
#that is just. such a beautiful sentiment? that's so lovely?#like the hope that no one is suffering and the belief that god is so merciful he has forgiven everyone no matter what? that's beautiful????#i hope hell is empty too damn.#i'm really not religious i know i talk about religion kind of a lot who claims to not be religious but#idk i've been some form of vaguely christian for most of my life but i've always struggled with it for various reasons#and i believe in science i believe in history and archaeology and i know for a fact the bible is written by humans and entirely fallible#but something about it still draws me in even if i don't really believe it. weird. anyway that was a really nice thing that the pope said.
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I think instead of thinking of all art as something which is objectively good or bad, it is more productive to think of art as an expression of yourself. An expression of yourself can't be bad, as it is a form of communication, something coming from you to the person that is seeing it. It doesn't matter if it's not as good as other's art, because it is speech. You are talking. Your speech is always going to be different from others. Not worse nor better.
#I was listening to cassandra float can again and I was thinking about how during this specific presentation#Anne Carson also did a series of sonnets that I didn't very much enjoyed and thought were too loud or unruly for me#and then I started thinking about them in a different way and realized that it doesn't matter if I dislike them#because like I said they are speech trying to convey something specific and there's nothing to speech#speech is a way for you to communicate a part of your thoughts which is also what the essay is about#and so art is for you to communicate a part of yourself in any form#you draw a character you like and you ask yourself why devote so much time to this specific character what does it bring#even this is a form of relating#it's interesting it's what I'm saying#wmp.txt
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finally watching channel zero and i immediately have so many thoughts in the first ten minutes
#random thoughts#candle cove#okay so first: the fly#obviously represents mike in some way#it was drowning in a glass which was given to him complimentary. something about struggling to feel like he belongs in his life?#like it was something given to him that he does not deserve and does not make him happy#his relationship with his wife is obviously strained. his son is mentioned so far only in relation to his career#though his mother says he's always welcome the framing in the kitchen is claustrophobic#either only one of their faces is in camera very close or they're clustered together in one half of the kitchen#his mother is a foster parent or a teacher of some kind. possibly trying to fill the void made empty#by what she views is the disappearance of both her sons#though mike said his father was out of the picture he seems shocked his mother doesn't have pictures of him around#probably not dead but has left and mike blames her somehow and views his father as blameless#when his brother disappeared mike also lost a mother. and his mother lost both her sons#their dialogue is very. distant and impersonal. no questions about each others' lives. no questions about his wife and son.#and mike seems to struggle with children despite being a child psychologist. in both times we've seen him he's been overly friendly#and strained. in the dream sequence we see him snap at the child to turn the tv off#which is more evidence to the idea mike feels he doesn't belong in his career#he may also be experiencing some kind of depersonalization of others (the mannequins behind the cameras)#possibly believing his actions to ultimately not matter because those there to witness them are not truly people#hope to see what kind of relationships he DOES form or if his sense of relationships has been completely tarnished by his brother's death#subconsciously he fears his childhood home. he possibly knows something about the disappearance of his brother#who he also talks about more as an extension of himself rather than as a seperate entity#so far no puppets. sad!#back to the framing in the kitchen. i think mike views his relationship to his mother as one which is forced#it lacks closeness but they are forced to be part of each others' lives due to the genetic bond between them#his mother fears mike is back to prod at the old wound which is the murders#it seems she's trying to cope by distancing herself and keeping her mind busy with raising children#it's notable the girl calls her miss rather than mom. more distance despite objective closeness#mike may also become jealous of the girl. he seems like he has a strange relationship with the children in his life
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i love when i make a placeholder guess about a Real Life Thing while writing a fic and later when i go to look it up my guess was actually correct
#weeks ago in a wip i'd said it'd be about 2 hours btwn point A and point B and. when i just now looked it up... its literally 2 hrs 3 min#and in this same wip i had ALSO managed to accurately guess which day of the week the numerical dates i was using lined up with in#the year it's set in. like in terms of me forming my timeline the numerical dates were what matteredâbc a plot point coinciding#with the anniversary of something from the canon is relevantâthe days of the week less so. i had just been like 'ah i'll look at a#calendar and adjust these later' and well. when i looked. i happened to be right for that year SOMEHOW#grandpa max is god? i go to church now
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CJ literally called Ed a slur multiple times on-screen to his face, so if you're really going to get upset at BIPOC for feeling vindicated that the white man who's still alive is actually learning to treat Ed like a person, but you don't say shit to ppl who are casual CJ enjoyers about his racism and how he has not unlearned a single lick of it because he died instead, you can actually fuck all the way off.
#Void Rambles#I'm not over here waxing poetic about the rat man#insulting him is literally how I enjoy his character#I want him to get up to so many situations#can y'all literally shut up about it#unlearning racism doesn't always mean saying the words âracistâ or âdehumanizingâ about the things that have been said or done#it also looks like âI wasn't treating you like a whole person here is what I'm doing to change thatâ#and being racist in the passed does not negate the importance of denouncing said racism in the present#no matter what that unlearning process looks like it still needs to start SOMEWHERE#fandom crit#izzy hands#I'm literally getting so tired of this#I'm not allowed to have my own fucking feelings about Izzy bc some asshole has to come tell me anonymously#that I'm somehow perpetuating some mysterious form of racism just by not agreeing with them#fuck off with that thought and tone police bullshit#1312 kill the cop in your head#maybe you'll get over how badly you want us to kill the positive or negative aspects of Izzy in ours
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